Days 21 to 26

Well I have had a major writing complication of lack of sleep and working my tail bone off so I really want to apologize about my latest blunder but this is not all you will be mad at me about when I get done writing this. So I have totally screwed up all accomplishments this last week on quiting. HELP ME. Let me just pull off the band aide and tell you the facts: Thursday = 5, Friday = 5, Saturday = 5, Sunday = 7, Monday = 1, and Tuesday = 4. So in 6 days I had a whopping 27 cigs so for this past two weeks that I was only suppose to have 20 turned into 44. I rock do I not. You can all reprimand me in your own way. Well to top it off I will be working doubles for a while seeing how we are down a bartender which just makes it even harder to not stop thinking about a cigarette. Those were the best when I would get done being busy and being able to go outside and smoke a cigarette. Well the bright side of all of this is that I have only smoked 75 cigarettes when I would have really smoked 120 at this time roughly speaking. You are probably going to hit me when I say baby steps but it is the little accomplishments that motivate me more. Seeing how I really did not think I did anything to deserve and type of accomplishment. I got so far behind updating this that I lumped the last 6 days together. Really nothing cool or exciting to write down about these last days except for working my tail off and sleeping pretty much all day Sunday. Sang some karaoke on Saturday with the bosses and really good friends. Did my annual Sunday dinner with my best friend and his wife. Monday I was asked and I accepted to be part of one of my oldest and best friends wedding. I will be going down to Nebraska in September to be part of that. Other than that it has been a very usual week and now it is off to bed to finish the rest of this hectic work week. Again I want to apologize for the lateness and for the falling down but I am getting myself back up and going strong with the help of one of my other best friends. You can never have too many friends or best friends in my book. LOL

Day 20

This particular Wednessday I had two birthdays and work to go to. I did my best at getting to work this morning but it was rough. John you need to get more sleep. You are only hurting yourself. Well I got through the day and went home for a little nap and then off two my commitments for the night. Well I slept so hard that I did not get up until 930 it was bad missed everything and on top of that I was not feeling getting up. So what do I do I throw on sweats and go to Arby's and then Redbox. Yeah I ate fatty food and rented three movies and came home for a full night on my ass. I slept off and on and watched movies. I liked all three movies. The first one I watched was Night at the Museum, the one in the Smithsonian, which was a fair movie that kept me interested. When got that one done I popped in THE HURT LOCKER, which was so good. During this one we get a hail storm that completely covered the street and half the electricity in my house went out. Well to fix that problem I had to get the headlight and a flashlight and go to the basement. This place is something out of an old fashion horror movie. When I say old fashion I mean in the eighties, lol. Well I conquered my fears and got it done. So proud of myself. Then it was off to District 9 which actually made me tear up. Then it was off to bed. So if you are paying attention I did not smoke today. BABY BABY BABY BABY STEPS.

Day 19

Good ole Tuesdays. These are starting to be the longest days of the week. I work from morning to close. It is always good to stay busy but on this particular Tuesday with was a little slow. I pretty much sat on my booty til 8 when the open mic starts. One of my favorite bands came that night and played which was awesome and of course a shout out to those few idivifuals that make it even better. My life sounds so boring when I start to write it all out and I do not know why. I have a fun, and enjoyable life. I do have a life outside of work and it just when most people are in bed. My play time usually starts at midnight and goes to 5am when I finally go to sleep. I go to bed with normal people are starting their day or almost starting their day. Next week is going to be rough if we do not find another bartender because I will be working doubles everyday except for maybe one or two days when I only have to work the morning. So next weeks would be a little dull because I will be exhausted. But after the whole open mic I went to usual bar and got wasted and smoked 5 cigarettes which was not good but still I am working on it. I will get there I promise.

Day 18

Well you will come to find out that Mondays are not really big days for me. It was Martin Luther King, Jr. 's birthday so a lot of people were off. I went to go see to small independent movies in a row. Then went to my favorite fast food place which is Chick-Fil-A. Took it home and watched my shows. Ended up staying up to 5 knowing that I had a double the next day. There is something to say about going to the bar and coming home and passing out, because that is the only way I get to bed on time. But I feel good. Have not had a cigarette in two days or a drop of alcohol. Yay me.

The Weekend- Days 15-17

Well my Friday was nothing really big. Got to work and worked til 230am. My friend and I bartended together and we did alright. Small group of people but spenders. Smoked one cigarette which brought my tally to 4. I know I have only 20 so I am slowly conserving my pack which I do not have. It totally sucks for my friends becaus I bum cigarettes from all of them. I do not want to buy a pack because I would smoke the whole thing.
Saturday was a very long day. Did not leave the Deli until 330am the night before because of a certain person would not stop talking. So with barely any sleep I made it to work for my long double. The morning was very slow began to fall asleep at the bar but once the DJ's got there for our dance party Saturday it began to pick up. We ended up having a busy night. I worked my butt off and rewarded myself with 3 cigarettes. I know that it does not sound like a good reward but to me it sounded good. Ended up at the bar til 6am to find out that I could not drive home so I crashed there in the office until 11am. Went home after that.
Sunday was me sleeping, going to my friends for dinner and coming home and watching my shows. I was up til about 6am that night too. But I did not have anything to drink or smoke. Yay me. I usually drink wine with my friends but they partied a little too hard on Sat and were still hung over. We could only watch 1 of the 2 hours of 24. One of my favorite shows. The reason I was up so late sunday was because I had a lot to watch. That was the weekend. A little boring I know but they should pep up soon. LOL

Day 14

So Thursday was a wash really. Not a whole lot to say but I did come up with a whole new revelation. So you know how yesterday I was disappointed in myself because of the 31 cigarettes, well it helped me come up with my plan. The new plan for quitting smoking is to do baby steps. I know what you are thinking, that's from "What about Bob?" but it does actually work for all life's trials. I just need to slowly ween myself off them. So new plan and idea from a drunk guy. I would love your input on if this sounds logical. So for the next 13 days I am only allowed 20 cigarettes. Then after that the next 13 I will go to 10, then 5, then none. I am going to try it out to see what happens. So I have already had 3, 17 more to go. That was the most exciting thing that happened. I hope the next one will be more entertaining.

Day 13

Oh this was a very hard morning to get through. I believe I was going on 3 hours of sleep, we were short staffed, and I was running late. All adds up to one exhausting day. After the long morning shift I went to dinner with my sister and couple of my other friends to Red Prime (which is a fantastic steak house) to eat dinner my treat basically. This was my first experience in fine dining steak house. After going to the bar and ordering a glass of Pinot Noir which happened to be 20 dollars (ouch) while waiting on my party we got seated at our table. Since it was only two of us they would not give us the menus until the whole party arrived. It seemed that the waiter ignored us until the whole party arrived. My sister and I had a show to go to so we were kind of in a time crunch but all turned out pretty good. The food was fantastic and my wine was good. 250 dollars later (again another ouch) we headed off to see Legally Blonde on the stage. Show was actually very good and kept me awake so kudos to the performers. After the show I said goodbye to my sister and came to the Deli for some good ole Karaoke. Yes I do sing and if need be to win a contest my shirt does come off. Oh and I had 3 cigarettes. I know how it sounds that I am not even making a difference but I think I am. I have smoked 31 cigarettes since this started and now I realize I am doing horrible. Wow once you put that number out there it really has a impact on what I have been doing. I am going to really have to get my butt in gear and do it. I am not weak. Yes I am but I will try to overcome it. The next 13 days I am going to show more of a accomplishment. Sorry if I let any of my followers down. Love you guys. Day 14 will start my new gumption if that word works there. LOL